1.13.2011

Monday...

I left Karen's place late Sunday night after we spent a long time sitting in bed, drinking coffee and talking. I walked across the island to the room I shared with Oliver, who, when I walked in, was banging a girl of questionable linage and vintage on the living room couch. I excused my intrusion and went to bed. I woke up early on Monday, drank a huge mug of coffee standing in the shower, the hoofed it to the bus and went into San Diego to work. The day didn't start well, I was making ready a job on the old two color Heidelburg press and a sheet took off and went into the rollers. Not a great way to start the day. I was peeling it out when Oliver's father came into the pressroom and yelled over the din,
"Hey, Spence, your girlfriend is on the phone."
Fuck. Now what. She never, ever called me during the week. Maybe she had second thoughts and decided to pack it in and go back to New Mexico. That would cap the day, for sure. I peeled off my rubber gloves and walked into the office and picked up the receiver from the desk and said hello...
"Hey, sorry to bother you at work, but I have some news."
"Yeah, everything OK?"
"Yeah. I was talking to Jake and he said we could use his brother's cabin up in the Sur if we wanted to. His brother is in the crazy house again, this time it looks like it's for good and we can stay there as long as we want. Can you get some time off? Jake said I can take off as long as I want."
"I guess. I'll find out and let you know later. It sounds pretty cool."
"OK, can you come over tonight, we can figure it all out?"
"Yeah, I'll see you some time or another."
"You know, it would be easier if you moved in with me, can we talk about that, too?"
Oh, shit, oh, shit, oh, shit...
"Uh, yeah, we can. I have to go, I'll see you tonight, OK?"
"OK."
"Bye."
"Bye."
I hung up the phone and turned around to find Commander West, as we all called Oliver's dad, was standing in the office doorway.
"Everything OK?"
"Yeah, she just had something important to tell me. I think she wants us to take a week and go up to the Sur and spend some time alone together. Any chance you can get along without me for a while? I'd really like to take a break."
"Yeah, sure. I guess Oliver can keep his dick in his pants and make it to work every day for a week if he has to. Take what ever time you need."
"Thanks, Commander."
"No problem. When do you need to take off?"
"I guess I'll know tomorrow. I gotta go clean up that press before it's a real mess. I think the grain of that stock is wrong, it's curling like a bitch."
"Yeah, it's a job lot. Do what you can with it"

So I struggled through the day and after work I went back to my room, got cleaned up and borrowed Oliver's bike and headed into the sunset. It was about seven o'clock by then, still light and still hot as hell.
I arrived at the cafe about a quarter of eight, I was getting pretty good at traveling by bike around town. I leaned the bike against the bottom of the back stairs and was starting up when Jake popped out of the cafe's back door.
"Hey, man, what's up? I thought you'd be half way back to the least coast by now after Saturday morning. Damn, that girl of yours has a temper plus one. She was giving her sister an earful and I had to separate them before it turned into a brawl. Everything OK?"
I fished out a smoke and lit it and sat on the bottom step.
"Yeah. Family squabble. Her sister is a fucking psycho. I gotta tell you, man, I thought it was going to be all over after that mess. I'll never figure Karen out."
"Dude, let me tell you, if and when it comes down to anything with Karen and you, you're going to win out. I've known her for three years and she's gone through a few guys, but I think you've hit some nerve or something. She's pretty flighty sometimes, but she's been pretty much grounded since you've been coming around. Where that's going is between you and her, but don't fuck it up, man. Whatever happens, happens, but let her be the one to run with it, OK? Maybe you got a magic dick or maybe you just let her be her, I don't know and I don't care, but she's a changed girl these days. Hey, did she tell you about my crazy ass brother's place up in the Sur? I told her you can use it for as long as you want, I think he's in the wacky-shack for the long haul this time. As long as you don't mind staying in a crazy man's place, I mean."
"Yeah, that's why I'm here, she wants to talk about it. Appreciate the offer, Jake."
"No problem. Don't know what it's like up there, I haven't been there since Winter, but it's a great place. You two can drink wine and smoke dope and run around the woods bare ass naked all day and then spend all night in a bed of pine needles, fucking yourselves silly under the stars. There's no neighbors and it's only a twenty minute hike to the ocean. It'll do your souls good. I gotta run. Let me know what's going on, I'll give you the key to the place, although I don't know if the locks have been changed or even it there are any locks. He's a pretty fucked up guy. Thinks the secret police are after him or some such shit. Later, man."
"Yeah, later. And thanks. We'll let you know."
He went back into the back door of the cafe. I really, really liked Jake. He knew just how much to poke his nose into things and he had a really good grasp on life, especially affairs of the heart. I wondered if he had someone like Karen in his life. If he didn't, he deserved to. I flicked the end of my cigarette into the parking lot, got up and walked up the stairs. I knocked on the back door. Why? I don't know, I never knocked. As much as I thought things were OK, I realized that things were actually changing. I thought I better heed Jake's advice; I better not fuck it up and I better let Karen take the lead. Ok with me.




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1.12.2011

"the afternoon after the night before..."


Sunday morning came and went. I sat on the couch, drinking coffee, half-heartedly reading the paper and wondering what would unfold this day. Karen was sleeping in, I guess working and the encounter with big sister had worn her out. Good thing, at least for me, I wasn't looking forward to what I envisioned was to come. I thought about putting on the radio and listening to some music from the Mexican station from Tijuana, XETT-AM, raping the airways with fifty thousand watts, Mariachi, brass and something new they were pushing, Tex-Mex, but didn't want to chance waking her up. I got up from the couch and started into the kitchen to get another cup of coffee, when I almost collided with her walking out of the bedroom. I stopped in my tracks and searched for something to say... "Good afternoon", was all I could muster. She just stood there, looking at me, her hair all a-tangle, her eyes puffy and red. God damn, in spite of it, she was so beautiful. She took a step forward, wrapped her arms around me and put her head on my chest. I folded my arms around her and leaned my face down into her hair. She had the Breakfast Special thing going on, Jake was a great cook and her hair was as good as a menu as the greasy papers that served that purpose on his tables. She was making me hungry.
"Are we ok?", she half whispered to me.
"Yeah, sweetheart, we're fine. How 'bout you?"
"Yeah, I'm ok. How's Del?"
Damn.
"Well, apparently, she's left and gone home. She left a note. She asked me to say goodbye to you for her. I'm sorry..."
I could feel her stiffen and her arms around my waist pulled harder. She jerked a little sob and shook her head in my chest.
"Fuck."
"It's ok. You wanna talk?"
"No. I don't want to talk right now. I want you. Come back to bed. We can do it and then we can talk. Ok?"
"Ok... I guess. You sure?"
"Yeah."

So, we did it. And then, we talked.

"Where's this note she left? Can I read it?"
"Nope. She asked me to get rid of it, so I burned it."
"God, I fucking hate her sometimes. So tell me, did she really tell you things about me last night, or did you two just end up fucking on the beach?"
I let go of her and sat up in bed. It was dark. Sunday night. I swung my legs over the side of the bed and sat up.
"No, I didn't fuck her on the beach, why would you think I'd ever do that? You're really on the edge of pissing me off. All she did was tell me things I didn't want know and still don't want to know. God, I can't believe you asked me that."
"Sorry, but I know her better than you do, it wouldn't surprise me."
"Well, sorry to disappoint you, but nothing happened. I wouldn't do that to you, especially with your fucking sister. God, what do you take me for?"
"I didn't think you would, really, but I had to ask. She's done it before."
"Yeah, well that's between you and her. What's between you and me needs to be what we talk about."
"Come back her and lay down. Please?"
I thought about that for a minute, then got back in bed, lay behind her back and pulled her to me. Now or never, dude.
"I'd never do anything like that, especially to you. I know you told me never to tell you this, but I love you..."
Fuck. Summon Gabriel. It's the end of times...
She rolled over to face me. She brushed my hair out of my face and put her hand behind my head and looked me with those dark brown eyes of hers. I expected the worse.
"Yeah, I did. But I never said you couldn't love me. You need to listen better. You know I love you, don't you? I mean, God, you know that, right?"
I didn't want to tell her I found out through Della, so I sort of lied. I mean, sometimes, a little lie is a good thing, right?
"Yeah, I had a suspicion..."
"You're so perceptive... Look, what happened with Del never happened. Despite what she told you about me, she's really the psycho in the family. I might have been the family nympho, but I'm over that, but she's not really right. I'll leave it at that, if it's ok with you. So, you still love me, even though you know I fucked my way through Pie Town and beyond?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. That was then. One of these days, someone will tell you about my sordid past."
"Heh, I can't wait. I want some coffee."
"Yeah, me too. I'll make it."
"No, I will. You know, we need to get away from here for a while. Why don't you think of someplace we can go while I'm slaving away in the kitchen? Someplace different, someplace quiet and dark, where we can be all alone for a while."
"Del left you her car. I forgot to tell you."
"She left it to I can pack it up and go back to Pie Town, she was railing about that to me yesterday. Maybe one of these days. But not right now. Now I want coffee and I want more of you, if you're up to it..."
"I'll give it my best..."
"Yes, you will."