the doldrums...

My life these days consists of my boring commute back and forth to work, anxiety and grief while at work, getting up at four in the morning to lay some paint on the pieces of the shelf brackets I've been working on, painting pieces of the shelf brackets after I get home from work, drinking various forms of alcohol, dropping pain killers, passing out, getting up at four in the morning and doing it all over again. I'm taking a four day weekend so I can build a jig for assembling the shelf brackets, play with the drill press for hours, pre-drilling the holes and counter sinks for the mounting screws and the screw buttons, then assembling the seventy five pieces into twenty five brackets. Then I get to mount them to the walls, cut, paint and mount the ledger strips to support the back edge of the shelves. Then rip the plywood for the shelves, paint it, add the edging strips and put them up. And then, after that, we can stock the shelves with the hundreds of books we have stored all over the house. And the hundreds of CDs and some of our more treasured vinyl. Then it's on to the built in book case over the mantle, then the mantle, then, because I can't find a door that I like that we can afford, I'll probably make an Arts and Crafts style door, stain and hang it. Then paint and install about three hundred and sixty feet of cove molding to seal the gap between the sheetrock I put between the exposed beams in the ceiling and the beams. And replace the existing ceiling fan with an Arts and Crafts style version. Then I get to finish re-roofing the front porch roof, rip the old porch ceiling out, re-run the electric for the new porch light, add a drop for an outside outlet and put the new tongue and groove bead board ceiling up. Then replace the wood on the outside of the nine windows on the front of the house. And restore the transom over the front door so it works again. And make the wood shutters for the inside of the three double hung windows in the living room. And wire in the radiant heating system in the living room floor, which means I have to gut the closet under the center staircase. Then build a new wine rack for the closet. And then I get to start the dining room, for the second time. New Arts and Crafts style paneled walls, new flooring, all new trim, a corbel ceiling, a new door for the closet under the stairs and the built in china closet and book cases and window seats across the front wall. And a new dining room mantle. And shutters for the inside of the windows, to match those in the living room. And then, the new kitchen cabinets and counter tops. And new flooring and radiant heating system. And new windows in the reading nook off the kitchen. And a new Dutch back door and wooden storm door. And on, and on and on...



go ahead, make your day...