something is wrong...
i don't know what it is, maybe it's not so much something is wrong as it is that a lot of things aren't right. i've not been this much out of balance for a long, long time. everything seems an effort. nothing seems able to find it's own level, nothing seems to have an actual end... it all just goes on, and on and on. the disconnect between my thoughts and my deeds is worsening. everything flees from my touch.
it is maddening that no one can see what i can see in everything, no one can hear what i hear...
there is nothing out beyond me... i am standing still...

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