Saturday, April 10, 2004

what am I listening to..?
Jason Molina... somebody hide the razor blades...


Chris and Shana...

I finally updated your link! Man, I am a lazy sot!
No nap. Watched the end of the Nascar Busch race. My man Michael Waltrip won! (well, he had help... there was a huge wreck with two laps to go... ).
I'm waiting for my daughters and Herve to come home for Easter. I love it when everyone is here. I feel whole.



what am I listening to..?
dog snoring...


it's 4:24 in the afternoon...

I spent all day outside raking up the grounds and pruning dead limbs from the hedges and trees. The grounds of the Manor look like hell. I think this spring and summer will be a task of trying to get things back in order after the harsh winter. I will be saving all the outdoor construction and renovation projects for the fall, like the new belgian block patio, the new pergola and the further expansion of the flower gardens and my herb garden.
I'm beat. I'm going to have a glass of wine and take a nap. I think the last time I took a nap during the daytime I was about 17 years old. I will probably be up all night for it. If that's the case, I will be back...


Friday, April 09, 2004

what am I listening to..?
the cat laughing...


long have you...

made me wander
through that lonely desert called hope...
all I ever wanted was to rest
in the shade under your tree,
all I really wanted was to dip
my hand into the cool
waters of your soul,
all I really needed was to hear
the words of your promise,
set to that song
I wrote just for you.
Just something that simple.
But you'd rather that I run
through rocks and sand,
till I fall over into my own shadow.
I'm too tired to fight off
your vulture that stands
over me now,
it's head cocked, listening
for my last breath.
I can't believe you want
me to die with sand
in my shoes.



Wednesday, April 07, 2004

what am I listening to..?
fifties Lounge music...


down a path, darkly...

one of the wonderful things about being of the goth persuasion, is that there are no standards to uphold, no marks to hit, no in-crowds to impress. you are what you are. whether you are subtle about it, or you prefer to be in the face about it, you are easily, openly and warmly welcomed by those of the ilk. you don't even need to be blatant about it... the most amazing thing is when you walk into a place full of people of many types and there's a few other goth souls there, you almost instantly gravitate toward each other, no matter how you're dressed. it's more of what you radiate, i think. or not. who knows. who cares.
and please welcome a new goth friend to our little world, "Z". he seems to be a fellow tortured soul, please have a visit. I've added him to the links at the left.
Also, please visit Erin, she's about to post what promises to be some interesting stuff.
And, as far as having something funny for you all to look at, I decided that, indeed, discretion is the better part of valor, or in this case, humor. Some things are better left alone... especially pictures of me, stoned on Scotch at a friend's daughter's wedding...
I'm going to take a break and have another glass of wine. Go outside and look at the sky. Listen to the spring peepers calling from the brook. Smell the earth being born anew. It's a wonderful thing.



Tuesday, April 06, 2004

what am I listening to..?
molecules... crazy, bouncing molecules...


I am still...

in a funk. I think it is due to the massive decompression that occurs between the time I leave the office and the time I get home. It's an hour plus ride during which I (thankfully) shrug off the frenetic stress of work so, when I get home, I'm usually relaxed. Problem is that I think I go to far and have been not only divesting myself of daily stress, I'm zoning out.
If I feel ambitious tomorrow I will have something funny for you to look at, provided I can summon the energy to lift the lid on the scanner and drag the mouse around.
I'm going to bed now. I hope I have some good dreams tonight. A nightmare would be fun...
I'll see you later.


Monday, April 05, 2004

what am I listening to..?
the wind, the wind...


I've decided...

after sitting here staring at the Blogger entry screen for half an hour, that I have nothing of any interest, humor or wisdom to say. Perhaps later. or tomorrow. I'm bored and I'm tired and frustrated. I'll go away now.